Leaving and the new Challenge???

Istanbul The new Beginning ????

The inspiration to write a few Lines over the past moth has been near impossible the rise of the Black Dog and its need to be put down the non payment of wages for all and sundry some of which have now been paid not all in full to all.

The security situation becoming so bad the project has been evacuated .Maanga Jim getting his growth cut out of his nose and will now not go blind the high light I guess of the last month . Along we Princess and I finally geeting the locals gardens p and running and some wanker of an Arab cranks the Militia up around us and then the would be leaders /warlords respond with soldiers and guns every where big ones too. The local town is locked down .The politics and hatred amongst the local politicians is perhaps more intense than the danger perceived from the Militia .

During the last weeks of my tenure ,the black dog that I thought had been muzzled and put down several years ago began to whine and finally growl .For those of u who have been unlucky to have him in your life you know what he is capable of for those of u who have not.

 It is like a foggy cold black darkness that envelopes your very soul making  decisions irrational .If they are made at all . No sleep yet all you crave is lie down and forget the world is there .If you have responsibilities to others the danger of irrational  decision making is just too real .Making your self a danger to them and perhaps to your self. If you do  not recognize this you can just plunge into the darkest space available and be of no use to any one at all .It was beneficial that I did  to all around me.

The very blood in your veins seems to flow a thick with black destructive  thoughts and actions of don’t care and remorse that slowly creeps through your soul to wonder at what the very essence of your existense is about. The motor bike jumps get higher the risks and challengers you take of pushing the boundaries of peoples reactions becomes a sport .[Not the best when they have a big gun and small uneducated inactive brain]

I had already told Peter I would be leaving at the end of March if wages and incentives  were not met by then so it was going to happen any way.

During the course of the month I found I could not function  to 100 percent of what was required to make informed and proper decisions.

A turning point was  there were some containers coming from Port Sudan early next week [they are still coming] the numbers were the same as the ones I had been expecting a year and the money for local expenses was still” Inshalla” just like  all year  and so resigned mid month taking effect around the 27^th as by then I had hoped to have Maanga Jims nose fixed in Nairobi and him on his way back to Maanga and my visa expired also.

The evening I told the boys I was leaving was something I had never experienced in my life and in some ways a total revelation of emotion and humility I had never ever experienced.

In our little world of Aus we say oh thats a pity,better have a drink and keep in touch all of which is crap.

I told the guys and it was just total dead silence .Like a life had been taken I had no idea what  I had done to them.

We had they explained over time  built such a close bond between us that I had  totally underestimated the effect this decision would have on them. To be held in such esteme as to be like  a father to them was beyond belief to me and made me feel so bad in one way but also confirmed my decision that I could no longer rationally make decisions for there better well being.

The visits later to my room and the tears shed were incredible  even by me just extraordinary emotion some thing I have never experienced before .Just pure raw emotion .

A totally different reaction was forthcoming from the Governor all he cared about was he would loose votes as the project may stop . He  was a breath away from taking my passport  but as things need to be a bit modern these days and after all his family live in Melbourne he did not . Don’t worry he will just get more guns to make sure he gets the votes or get whacked him self  two prominent persons [warlords] have now come out in open hostility to him so time will be interesting in Unity State.

And as it turned out my decision  was right as two days after I took Jim to Nairobi the decision to evacuate was made although aware of the situation it had esculated in the way to the air strip with Bentiu put under lock down .

There had been a major fire fight within 100ks and also the Militia had moved to the border at Higlig about 70ks away.

Any how all is gwar helped get them all out from  the project from Nairobi with last out on Monday and me off to Turkey where I am sitting on a roof top sipping a red , looking over the Bosphorus sea and wondering now how I am to get to Transylvania in search of Dracula ? Bus I think.

So my Sudan adventure in its present form is over but  you never know what can happen you can never say never .The learning curve is huge and inviting.

These are some of the raw emotion I have received from people whom I can call friends for ever. Thanks to them for their kind words

Thank you very much Mr Tim for everything you did to me . Training me to operate , skills on chaining ,raking the list is endless . You are a father to me and my other workmates . God bless you .

I believe God lead you well in Kenya.Before you were born God had good plans for

you to make you prosper all the times .Every bad thing I believe its devil.God

is going to reward you shortly for all the great might works you did He already

put it in his records so, when blessings comes do not be amazed .I  speak and

declare good healthy all the days of your life,double portion of anointing

,double portion of increase in abundance ,healing of broken heart, peace of mind

and joy be upon you.We all love you so much Be blessed. Isiah 43vs 5 says  fear

not for the Lord is with you.   Cheers>>>>>>>>>>>>>Beatrice

Honestly speaking I ve faild to cope up with the situation since you departd frm Maanga and I dont knw if Im gonna meet a good manager like u in my life again.Smetimes I could come with my problms and u could listen to thm like I was yuor own son thank you so mch fr yuor good heart may you remember me wherever u go and I promise you I wil remember u too.

So I just hope my little bit of teaching helps them in life .

So sitting in a nice place out of the wind every now and then I can here the call to bike rack hour as millions of bums through out the towel head world are raised to the heavens what a site it must make from up there .

 Mind u I will admit the construction of the Blue Moque here is extraordinary with all the lights on and is s piece or architectural incredulance.

Roof Saint Sophia mosoque/church/Museum

Just boats and flowers all along the water front

Will it fit under 155,00 boats a year go under up to the Black Sea

More Shore Line

Sultans Hunting Lodge

Golden Horn river

Soccer Club oppulence the Club owns the island it is there social club

My dancing partner I can now say I have danced with a Belly Dancer on the Bosphrous 

Saint Sophia has been a Mosque and a church it is now a museum

The Blue Mosque

So I am now in Varna in Bulgaria and sipping on a quite one or two and using the fastest wireless I have ever used fantastic.

Instanbul was great the sands of Sudan went down the shower drain but it is not good I could not finish?

Have met some great people over the last day or two have a wonderful invite to visit Kazakhistan and will do so.

Couple of Jobs out there but no rush pouring beer in a Pub some where has its appeal.